A Change of Pace

Lately, my mind and heart have been really focused on sin. Not on actually sinning (which I sadly still do), but ruminating over past sins. And by ruminating, I mean obsessing. I am not a very good forgiver (more on this later), so it figuratively boggles my mind trying to comprehend the idea of an all forgiving God. I know what God tells me in the Bible, and I believe every period, comma, and phrase to be true, but the mere concept seems so crazy to me! In the world in which I live, it does not make sense to have a God that is constantly loving and constantly forgiving me, an undeserving sinner. I often feel bogged down by my sin and trying to make amends and changes. I focus constantly on my pet sins, the sins that I keep feeding and nurturing, even though they are sucking the light out of me. 

I'm trying to focus my eyes more on the Cross, though, and less on the sin.Yes, I sin. Yes, I need to work as hard as I can to remove sin from my life. But the fact of the matter is this: the war has already been won. My heart is sealed in the hands of God and there's basically much nothing that I can do to screw that up. Crazy, right? My God loves me so much that He sent His one and only Son for me, so that regardless of my sins, I can hang out with Him for all of eternity. THAT is where I want my focus to be. On the Good News. The Best News. I am often stunned by the goodness of God. And by goodness, I mean great, awesome, incredible, incomprehensible, utter amazingness of God.

The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.

 For real, God is awesome. I just can't get over it! So I'm going to lay my heart down at the foot of the cross, sin and all, and give my whole life to my main man Jesus. It's only through Him that I have anything to offer, only through Him that my sins are washed clear and my heart is as pure as His own. It is only through him that worthless is turned into worthy. On my own, I am unworthy. Just me, Molly, sitting here, I am a sinner. With Jesus, I rest in the love of God and am relieved of the burden of sin. Tonight, and every night, I will go to sleep rejoicing in the Good News and I will wake up blessed by His love.